Nov 27, 2019

23. Shi Xi knows Guo Zhi

•Oh, My Dear! Chapter 22•


Shi Xi sat on the grass behind the stadium which was hidden and quiet, without the crowds, avoiding the sun's rays.

Just like the dark stairs leading to the roof of the school, Shi Xi always chose a place where he could be alone. Other people are always afraid to feel lonely, but that is precisely what Shi Xi wants. He leaned against the wall with a hat covering his handsome face. The pen was interrupted with his fingers rubbing against each other with paper, he continued writing until the pen's ink ran out then threw it away.

He just sat after that for a long time before taking out his cellphone, pinned to his ear.

"Shi Xi!" The voice across the call greeted him cheerfully as usual.

"Pen."

"Where are you?"
    
"Behind the stadium."

A few moments later, Guo Zhi came to stand near Shi Xi, took out several pens while breathing. "Is this enough?"

Shi Xi doesn't answer, his hand moves to pick one up and continues writing.

Guo Zhi put the remaining pen back into the bag then sat a little far away and focused on his reading book. He did not want to disturb Shi Xi to turn each page with a gentle movement.

There was no noise, only silent silence and warmth.

Starting from meeting Shi Xi, when the man was writing fiction in the dark stairs, then when in a small garden near the lake at his school, and at this time Guo Zhi sat not far away, still waiting calmly not wanting to disturb Shi Xi.
    
Shi Xi wants to be alone, so Guo Zhi gives him solitude.

Shi Xi looked up, looked at Guo Zhi who was smiling in his reading as if the book was something to be happy about.
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Lunch time is over and class will start soon, Guo Zhi gets up and shakes off the dust in his pants. "I will return to class."

"Guo Zhi, do you always stick to me so I will like you back?" There was no expression on Shi Xi's face, only asking questions.

Guo Zhi shook his head. "No, I never thought that way. I know we are both men. I also know that you are different from me." Guo Zhi is no longer like he used to be sad and in pain remembering the cause of his scar, but now he smiles and accepts himself differently. A smile that will never fade. "I'm good to everyone, but only you I like." Guo Zhi came to his senses then hurriedly ran away.
   
"Like?" Shi Xi murmured softly, looking at the pen in his hand.
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The men are busy talking about who is the most beautiful girl in the class and Guo Zhi just sits quietly and focuses on his book. One girl, Guo Yiqi, was on the side of the bench busy looking in the mirror while wearing mascara. "What is your name?"
    
"I'm Guo Zhi." the response was reluctant.  In this campus everything is still unfamiliar to Guo Zhi, whether classmates or outside the classroom.

"Guo Zhi, lend me your notes, I want to copy them." Guo Yiqi did not look at Guo Zhi, she still focus mirroring herself. She did not care about her interlocutors, she only cared to widen her eyelashes.

"This." Guo Zhi submitted his notes. After a few moments Guo Yiqi turned his attention from the mirror, opened the notebook, she suddenly found a dried flower tucked, "This flower is very pretty."

"That, don't touch it." Guo Zhi panicked.  Dried flowers are easily broken.
    
"Give it to me, ok?" Guo Yiqi blinked cutely, another man would have been swayed, but Guo Zhi only looked at the dried flowers in the girl's hand anxiously. "No, I can't give it to you. Ah, you can take this." Guo Zhi took out a new pen which he had stocked for Shi Xi.

Guo Yiqi frowned in disgust. "Who needs that cheap pen, I want this flower."

"I'll add one more." Guo Zhi handed over two pens but Guo Yiqi threw them to the floor. She put the flower back in the book roughly make the petals off. Guo Yiqi pretended to be surprised. "Ah, sorry. I didn't mean it."
    
Guo Zhi bit his lip at the dried flower. "It's okay, you didnt do it on purpose."

Guo Yiqi ignored Guo Zhi, she faced the back seat chatting with her friend.

Guo Zhi took the tape from the bag and carefully put the petals together.

Guo Yiqi turned her head back and saw what Guo Zhi was doing that suddenly ignited her emotions, she stood up. As a child who used to be spoiled with money in her family, Guo Yiqi felt humiliated.  "What is the importance of the broken flower? Do you want to make me feel guilty?"
    
Guo Zhi was shocked, he shook his head at Guo Yiqi. "It is not like that."

"I still don't understand what's the point of this." Guo Yiqi seized the newly finished flower Guo Zhi to glue, threw it to the floor and stepped on it. "A man but so concerned about flowers, you abnormal!"

"I'm not abnormal." Guo Zhi suddenly shouted. Maybe before he would have turned pale and apologized but now he is so calm and confident.

"What is the commotion going on here? Come back to your seats." Reprimand the lecturer who just entered the class.

Guo Yiqi looked at Guo Zhi sharply, no longer making a sound, and shifted her stool away. Guo Zhi took the dried flower stalk, which was still left with one petal and slipped it in a book sheet. He listened calmly and focused on filling in the notes.  The flowers are destroyed but there is still Shi Xi so the flower garden is still blooming in his heart.
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Afternoon class ended, students went to the cafeteria, when climbing the stairs Guo Yiqi pushed Guo Zhi's back, "Move, don't block the road." Guo Zhi staggered almost to fall but was held by someone.

Guo Zhi looked up, "Shi Xi?"

Seeing that, Guo Yiqi folded his arms. "It is ridiculous, even his friend is strange, who wears a hat in a hot weather like this. If you don't want your ugly face seen, don't go to college."
    
Shi Xi looked at Guo Yiqi coldly. "Does your appearance qualify to call others ugly?!"

"What do you mean?"

"Don't you understand? That means you're ugly."

"How dare you! Don't you know who my father is?" Guo Yiqi shouted in anger.  Whoever looks for trouble with her, she does not hesitate to mention the position of hee parents.

"I don't know. But looking at you, they must be look very ugly."

Guo Yiqi with emotions overflowed wanting to attack Shi Xi but was prevented by his two friends. "Don't bother. Arguing with them will only damage your reputation. You are now a spectacle." Guo Yiqi responded, "Come on, leave." They were moved away followed by a crowd that also scattered.

Guo Zhi lowered his head, muttered to himself. "I'm not abnormal."

This sentence was not only he wanted to convey to Guo Yiqi but also to the world.
    
He is not abnormal!

Shi Xi reached out his hand, stroke Guo Zhi's hair. "You aren't."

Guo Zhi looked up, his eyes sparkling brightly.
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Shi Xi said that would make him know the ugliness of the world. That is not a lie.  Shi Xi shows evil and fairy tales, which makes Guo Zhi have learned to lie to his parents and recognize himselves. The bad is gradually getting stronger. Now, Guo Zhi believes God gave this difference to him, not to torture him. This is a gift, and this gift can only be opened if he feels love. It turns out that this is love, as long as he can stay near Shi Xi, he will always feel happiness.

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22. She is also protagonist ( Part 2 )

•Oh, My Dear! Chapter 21•


Dan Ju and Guo Zhi walked around the campus. Dan Ju who was still wearing Shi Xi's shirt did not care about being watched by each pair of eyes.

"Why aren't you and my parents responding the same?" Guo Zhi thought the world would hate that.

"You fool! In this world there are people who oppose it and also accept it. It's fine, Guo Zhi, do you know how many rotten women are in China? In the future, their numbers will increase."

"Rotten woman?"

"Those who want to see you are crushed by Shi Xi in the bed."

"Girl, what are you saying!"

Seeing Guo Zhi's response somehow made Dan Ju want to contact her lover. She pulled out her cellphone and made a call.

After the connection is connected, Dan Ju kisses her cellphone then talks loudly.  "Wei Ye, are you lonely because you separated from me? Being in a different place from your lover must be very torture right?"

"No."
    
"What do you want to eat? I will bring home many goods from this city, or, are you thinking about eating me?" Dan Ju's voice was lamentable.

"Don't force me to hang up."

"When will you follow my wish?" Dan Ju stepped ahead, her eyes watching the young faces passing by.

"When you are reborn."

Dan Ju could not help laughing. "Wei ye, I want to say I love you, will it sound strange?"

"Yes, so shut your mouth!"

 "I love ..." Dan Ju hasn't finished her sentence yet, the connection is turned off unilaterally. "Bastard, he really hang up!"

Guo Zhi had been focusing on attention with a curious expression. Dan Ju's show love are so free, she can show her love at will. Can Guo Zhi do that? His father's nagging voice immediately flashed, making him always shut himself and his feelings tightly.

Seeing the change in Guo Zhi's face, Dan Ju smiled sympathetically. "People cannot choose who to like, who should not like. Your love is not something special. Love is love. Including me, no one can control it. Not everyone can understand. You don't need to tell everyone. Be happy. Do not worry."

Like gaining strength, Guo Zhi nodded quickly.
    
Dan Ju continued, "Those idiots are just jealous. What else can they do? What would they dare to do? You know, those who hate homosexuals are the real gays."

"Is it true?" Guo Zhi is doubtful.

"True."

"It's like I always say to myself."

"See!"

"Turns out like that!"
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After two days Dan Ju was at Shi Xi's place to help him make the evil character as a fictional material, Guo Zhi came again to take him to a shop that sells local products. He is happy with Dan Ju, he can tell all doubts and problems.

They bought a few items and then left the shop.
    
"Girl, that's ..."

Guo Zhi detains Dan Ju who is preparing to leave. There are still phrases that block and want to say.

"What?"

"I, I don't want anything from Shi Xi, he doesn't need to like me. But is there a way to make him smile happily?"

"Has he ever written about you?"

Seeing Guo Zhi shaking his head, Dan Ju smiled slightly. "It's about Shi Xi, he has no emotions. He hates everyone. They are ugly, realistic, greedy, evil, so he withdraws from the world and observes them from outside the world, writes them in fiction. But he can't write about you, he might pay attention to himself."

"He didn't write about you either."

Dan Ju wrinkled her nose, "I'm not a good person."

"No. You are a good person."
    
"Because you always praise me, I'll tell you how to make Shi Xi smile."

"Really?"

"I'm not lying. When he was younger, he would smile and then laugh happily because of this."

"Thank you, girl."
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In the afternoon, Dan Ju packs up the items in Shi Xi's room. "Nephew, I'm leaving. Don't cry because you died. I can ignore everyone including you for my man's sake."

"No comment!"

"You're not very funny. Even though I've been kind enough to help surprise you, byebye."
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Dan Ju's departure was as usual as her arrival. In this love story, she is only a supporting role, but told by her love, this woman is also the main character. Like other people with their respective love stories.
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Moments later, Guo Zhi arrived at Shi Xi's room while gasping for running. "Where is girl?"

"Gone."

"What? She's gone? Even though I took the time to say goodbye." Guo Zhi let out a disappointed sigh.
    
Shi Xi doesn't talk, just focus on the laptop. Guo Zhi was still standing in front of the door, not moving. After a while, he quietly approached then put his hand on Shi Xi's shoulders and bowed, making a soft voice. "Oh, my dear!"

Shi Xi's body instantly froze, the sound breaking through his defenses made him caught off guard. He turned, "What are you doing?"

"Why don't you smile happily? Girl says every time you hear that words you will smile."
    
"Smile? Are you an idiot? You have been cheated many times and you still believe in that woman?"

"She's not that woman, she's girl."
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A Christmas-themed movie lights up on the laptop screen. Snowy skies, snowman stacks, cities glittering with light, colorful lights, people in thick coats, wrapped in shawls and burying their faces inside, they hold gifts in their hands, they hold hands, they kiss, in every corner nuanced Christmas with light music.

Guo Zhi watched it with a happy, adorable face. "Maybe the day isn't right. So if I call you like that on Christmas, will you smile?"

"Don't believe what she said."

"Someday if I call you like that, will you smile?"

"You don't understand what I'm saying?"

"You will smile." Guo Zhi hummed to the rhythm of the music.

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21. She is also protagonist

•Oh, My Dear! Chapter 21•


"W-wife?" Guo Zhi could not believe what he had just heard. He saw their intimate actions and all of his senses began to numb. Is this acceptable? Should he accept it? Why Shi Xi isn't telling him? But there's no reason for Shi Xi to tell him right?! Guo Zhi's mind is increasingly raging.

Guo Zhi shook his head strongly and retreated. "Sorry, I didn't know anyone was in. Sorry to bother. I'm leaving. Sorry."  After saying that he prepared to run but Shi Xi held his hand. "Hey."

"I-I don't want to destroy your household."

"Are you stupid?"

"Shi Xi, who is he? Are you cheating on me?" The woman screamed in anger.

"He never cheats, really, we don't have anything to do!" Said Guo Zhi.

"Really nothing happened between you two?" The woman continued to ask.

Guo Zhi's face paled as his memory returned when Shi Xi kissed him. He was nervous, "We were ..." his sentence was held back because Shi Xi immediately covered his mouth.

The woman released her hug then pointed at Shi Xi with a hurt expression. "You! Let him say it!"

Shi Xi looked at the woman coldly. "How long will you be playing?"

"Damn! Even just a little more ..." the woman choked in disgust, she turned to look at Guo Zhi's grim face. "It's great to fooling you."

Guo Zhi looked at the woman when Shi Xi took his hand off. "Fooling on me? Then you're not his wife?" Because he was too shocked, he realized that this woman looked more mature, maybe over twenty years. His face is clean but looks evil.  Two perfect combinations.

The woman seriously responded, "Of course I'm his wife."

Guo Zhi's face turned pale again.

"Can't you close your mouth?!" Said Shi Xi.

"Can't."

Guo Zhi was increasingly confused by the conversation between the two people in front of him. The woman saw Guo Zhi who looked pathetic. "Shi Xi, it looks like your friend doesn't have a high IQ. Listen to me, little bro, can you marry at your age?" Guo Zhi shook his head, his face turning slightly bright. "Then who are you?"

"I'm his fiance." The woman's response was fast with a serious face. Guo Zhi turned pale again.

"She's my aunt." Said Shi Xi.

The woman folded her arms, "Boring, why do you say that?"

"Aunt?" Guo Zhi paid attention to the woman and seemed to make a final decision.

The woman took her pants on the floor and wore it in front of the two men.  Fortunately, the t-shirt is quite long so it can cover parts that should not be shown.  She wears it no matter the surroundings.  She came in a hurry last night without carrying a change of clothes. As soon as she showered, Shi Xi gave her his shirt and went to sleep in the campus dormitory.

"Are you blind? There are still others here."

"I only show my beautiful image in front of my man. If I pretend to be shy, you need to be careful."

Shi Xi is too lazy to care about his aunt, he turns to look at Guo Zhi. "Why come here?"

"Ah, right. Hua er asked me to stick the poster in your room." Guo Zhi said as he handed over the poster scroll, Shi Xi took it and thrown it into the trash can. "You can leave."

"Let him go, you call me to come and say you are dying even though you only need material. You are truly an understanding nephew, I am very touched." His aunt continued while bluffing her teeth. "Do you know how painful it is to leave my lover? It feels like being stabbed by thousands of knives."

"Why don't you look like someone got hurt?"

"No way, love strengthens my vitality." The woman said shamelessly. She glanced back at Guo Zhi, "Hello, little bro. My name is Dan Ju.

"I'm Guo Zhi." He was a little shy, respecting the elders.

"You like Shi Xi, right?" The frontal question made Guo Zhi instantly paler. He stepped back, shaking his head in panic. "I-I didn't!"

"How dare you dodge! Our family does not accept things like this!" Said Dan Ju seriously.

Guo Zhi's face contracted. "I didn't mean to, really."

"You're still not done yet?" Shi Xi glared at his aunt.

"Of course. How can I stop teasing people with personalities like this." In the eyes of Dan Ju, Guo Zhi is very funny. The more bullied, the more funny the response makes it unable to stop. Dan Ju continued, "Take it easy, little bro. I am an open minded person. Such a small thing, I can accept it."

Guo Zhi's eyes widened in disbelief at his hearing. He carefully observed Dan Ju's expression, her words were the same as hee expression. Guo Zhi's face brightened. "Are you okay with me liking men?"

"Good? Not only you, I also like men. We're both the same."

"But I'm a man. Don't you think men like men is a very serious thing?"

"Is it that serious?" Muttered Dan Ju touched her chin. She never thought male and male relationships were surprising things. She continued, "Maybe it has something to do with education in childhood. Isn't that right, Shi Xi?"

Shi Xi opened the laptop. "I don't want to discuss it."

"I replaced your mother and tried to recommend you get out of there, don't you appreciate and thank me?"

"I told you, I don't want to discuss it."

"How can I let you be?" Dan Ju smiled bitterly, of course she would not let go of her nephew. When she told Shi Xi's mother, the school could develop Shi Xi's talent.  The broad campus makes students more open minded. An elegant environment allows students to behave more elegantly, with sophisticated facilities, quality education, and gentle teachers who love students. Actually, this is all bullshit, school is not a nightmare, teacher is a nightmare.

Shi Xi glares at Dan Ju, making her turn to pat Guo Zhi's shoulder. "Brother, I'm bored. Take me for a walk to your campus."

"I suggest you don't do anything stupid."  Shi Xi warns Guo Zhi.

"But I want to invite ..." What should he call? It's not polite to just call names.

"Just call me girl, lady, or beautiful ..."

"But I want to take girl around."

Shi Xi looked at Guo Zhi. "You want to find death."

"Girl is really a good person. She doesn't think I'm a freak." Guo Zhi feels that people who don't hate same-sex relationships are good people.

"You're right, I'm a good person." Dan Ju who never received praise from others felt proud while patting Guo Zhi's back. She turned to look at Shi Xi, "Hey, Shi Xi. What are you waiting for? I think Guo Zhi is a good kid. You can prees him down on your bed." Shi Xi doesn't respond.

For first time heard such a words, Guo Zhi blushed to the ear. "Girl, w-what are you talking about?!"

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